And when I murmur, complain and let it all escalate into full-blown anxiety, this is UNBELIEF.
I think of myself as pretty laid back. (hello, pride!) I really don’t care if you offer me a fillet mignon or a bologna sandwich. I can buy my clothes at the local big box store or even a thrift shop. I rather drive my 7-year-old car than have a car payment. I will make myself wait in line patiently. You get it. I am not a complainer, right? WRONG.
When it comes to the lives of people I love, particularly my children in this season; God showed me I am living in the sin of murmuring. Each uncomfortable situation I face with my young adult children I let out a barrage of complaints.
God, why can’t this be easy?
Why can’t we have smooth sailing?
Make them go back to church!
Honestly, though there have been some truly rough patches, they are both safe and well at this point. Even as I typed that sentence, God reminded me they have ALWAYS been safe with Him. But neither are where I want them to be. But guess what? They are each where God wants them, this is much more important.
And I murmur
And I compare
And I complain
So as I lead a study on the book of Hebrews and hit chapter three, the Holy Spirit reminds me:
Today, if you will hear His voice, Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion ,
In the day of trial in the wilderness.
I went back to Exodus and reminded myself of all the ways the Israelites murmured and complained; each time after God listened to their cries and graciously answered by performing another miracle and providing all their needs. He has dropped in my heart that unbelief is sin, and sin separates me from my God.
I have no excuse.
Hebrews 3:12a reminds us:
Beware, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God;
I pray that as the Lord shows us areas in our life that we hide fear and unbelief, that we will surrender to Him and allow God to be our true LORD OF ALL.