So God is Showing Me, I MURMUR!

And when I murmur, complain and let it all escalate into full-blown anxiety, this is UNBELIEF.

I think of myself as pretty laid back. (hello, pride!) I really don’t care if you offer me a fillet mignon or a bologna sandwich. I can buy my clothes at the local big box store or even a thrift shop. I rather drive my 7-year-old car than have a car payment. I will make myself wait in line patiently. You get it. I am not a complainer, right? WRONG.

When it comes to the lives of people I love, particularly my children in this season; God showed me I am living in the sin of murmuring. Each uncomfortable situation I face with my young adult children I let out a barrage of complaints.

God, why can’t this be easy?

Why can’t we have smooth sailing?

Make them go back to church!

Honestly, though there have been some truly rough patches, they are both safe and well at this point. Even as I typed that sentence, God reminded me they have ALWAYS been safe with Him. But neither are where I want them to be. But guess what? They are each where God wants them, this is much more important.

And I murmur

And I compare

And I complain

So as I lead a study on the book of Hebrews and hit chapter three, the Holy Spirit reminds me:

Today, if you will hear His voice, Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion ,

In the day of trial in the wilderness.

I went back to Exodus and reminded myself of all the ways the Israelites murmured and complained; each time after God listened to their cries and graciously answered by performing another miracle and providing all their needs. He has dropped in my heart that unbelief is sin, and sin separates me from my God.

I have no excuse.

Hebrews 3:12a reminds us:

Beware, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God;

I pray that as the Lord shows us areas in our life that we hide fear and unbelief, that we will surrender to Him and allow God to be our true LORD OF ALL.




Never Finished

There is a special place in my heart for the elderly. I love listening to the stories of their lives and seeing pictures of days gone by. Although making it to a certain age surely does not mean you have “made it” and life is without struggles, I found that if I sit and listen, people will share a wisdom that comes with age and living life. It gives me hope. We’ve all been “there”, we can all make it through, God knows best.

I especially love the picture of a praying grandma. A woman whose Bible is never far from her side and whose prayer list is ever-growing. That list is not for show, she talks to Jesus about each and every name and situation on it. The term prayer warrior comes to mind. This must be why I am drawn to Anna who is mentioned in Luke chapter 2 verses 36-40. Four short verses that we can easily blow right by in our daily reading. Stop and look, she has so much to tell us.

The Word says that Anna was a prophetess of great age. From the information given in these verses we can safely say she was in her 90’s. She was a widow for about 84 years; marriages occurred much younger then. We go on to read that she devoted herself to God with prayer and fasting throughout her widowhood. It was no accident then that she was at the right place at the right time to see the babe Jesus brought to the temple to fulfill Jewish law. She did not “ooo” and “ahh” over a sweet, beautiful little baby, because she spent much time with God she knew the Truth as verse 38 tells us:

And she coming in that instant gave thanks likewise unto the Lord, and spake of him to all them that looked for redemption in Jerusalem.

Just as devoted Simeon had moments before, Anna knew this child was the Messiah, the Savior of the world. She thanked God and she spread the Good News!

Through God’s word, Anna has wisdom to share with us. First, and most obvious, we are never too old to serve God. There is a world of people around us that need prayer. Prayer matters. There is also a world of people around us that need to hear the good news of Christ’s salvation. Of course we do not need to and shouldn’t wait to be of a certain age to go about our Father’s work for us, but we need to stop discounting ourselves and those around us because we have reached a certain age. Keep going the Kingdom needs you!

Another point I see here is that Anna did not fill her time with a bunch of different activities to keep herself busy. She spent her time with God and God’s people. She prayed, she fasted. I believe she knew scripture because she knew God in the flesh when he was right in front of her. Again, no matter what our age, this is quite contrary to popular opinion, but God can’t use us if He doesn’t really have our attention.

I pray that this encourages all of us no matter what our age to spend more time with God in His word, so that we are always ready, always connected to our Father in heaven. God sees no limits in us, Lord, let us see ourselves through Your eyes. Amen





Reaching for Jesus

Ever have a song jump our and grab you? Many of us have. Last summer I was listening to some of my favorite southern gospel when a song by KarenPeck and New River stopped me in my tracks. Who Touched Me gives the simple narrative of the woman who pushed through the crowd to touch the hem of Jesus’ garment. The second verse tells all of us that we can have hope in Christ.

Listening to that song reawakened my heart to a call that I have felt often in my Christian walk, to encourage women. We can ALL  encourage one another on a daily basis, but God & I have periodically discussed my longing to do more. His answer has mostly been to sit and listen and wait. That day, however the words starting flowing from my pen. It was time to step out and let God use my voice and remind my friends or maybe show for the first time how this nameless, hopeless woman in a tiny bit of scripture battled her fear and disappointment along with physical distress and was made whole by the only One who can heal. Jesus himself.

We meet our sister in both the book of Matthew chapter 9 and Luke chapter 8. We learn back in Matthew chapter 4 v 17 “From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say ‘Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand'”. He was traveling the country side, teaching about the Kingdom of God and healing those who came to him. Word was spreading. Crowds followed Him. Some followed because they believed He was the Messiah, but many others followed because they wanted to see what He would do next. They didn’t want to miss a miracle. So we arrive at Matthew 9:18-21

While He spake these things unto them, behold, there came a certain ruler, and worshipped him, saying, My daughter is even now dead: but come and lay thy hand upon her and she shall live.

And Jesus arose, and followed him, and so did his disciples.

And, behold, a woman, which was diseased with an issue of blood twelve years, came behind Him, and touched the hem of his garment: For she said within herself, If I may but touch his garment, I shall be whole.

I have read over those few verses so quickly so many times. I have even caught myself thinking if I would only try a little harder. But that is not the point here. The point is, she believed what she heard. Let’s look at what she was living through. There is not much detail here but with a little research I realized she was an outcast. Levitical law stated that a menstruating woman was unclean. (Leviticus 15:19-31) I don’t believe God’s intent was to belittle the woman, but to give her space for 7 days. Not a bad plan. This woman however, had a medical condition for 12 years. Despite the obvious difference in normal body function and a serious problem, humankind’s corruption of God’s law left her isolated, outcast and poor, (see Luke 8:43). If she were ever married, her husband could not even affectionately touch her with out being considered unclean. I have to wonder if people stayed away even thinking she was cursed or had some sort of “secret sin”.

Isolated, lonely, desperate, broken; have you ever been there? It really doesn’t matter how we got there. It may be a physical or mental ailment, or choices on our part that turned out to be wrong. Maybe we don’t even know what caused the circumstances we are in, we just know we are exhausted and the end of the rope is in sight. Those you considered close have given up and left and even the gentle souls who have stayed by your side do not have the answers. This is why the Holy Spirit put this woman’s story in the Bible. We see how she reacts to her circumstances in her darkest hour; we can see how her story applies to our lives. How did she hear of Jesus? Was she tiptoeing into the marketplace at the last hour to beg for some rotten food overhearing vendors discussing this man who performed miracles? Did she still have a loving friend who told her of this man who cast out demons and forgave sin and spoke in authority of God’s word? We don’t know. But what she did with the information she had we do know. She did not give up and wallow in self pity. She moved her dying body from her home and in her weakness pushed through crowds. She did not shout or beg or make a show. She most likely felt too unworthy. Not wanting to be seen for fear of chastisement she came up behind Jesus. She believed just touching his garment would heal her body. She just wanted to feel better. Let’s pick up in Luke 8:44

Came behind Him, and touched the border of  His garment: and immediately her issue of blood stanched.

And Jesus said, Who touched me? When all denied, Peter and they that were with Him said, Master, the multitude throng thee and press thee, and sayest thou, Who touched they?

And Jesus said, Somebody hath touched me; for I perceive that virtue is gone out of me.

And when the woman saw that she was not hid, she came trembling, and falling down before him, she declared unto him before all the people for what cause she had touched Him, and how she was healed immediately.

And He said unto her, daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace.

Again, I can only speculate that her intention was only to be physically healed; however I do also think she believed with all her heart that Jesus could do it. It must have taken such great effort to get to Him it had to been more that a “last ditch effort”. She had already tried physicians that probably told that could clear this problem right up; they failed her. She had to fully put her trust in Jesus and no one else. What she gained because of that belief is the true miracle. Jesus, of course, called her out on purpose. Would she speak the truth or deny Him? Scared and trembling, still in that “unworthy” mindset she testified! She gave the unpleasant details and announced to all who could hear that Jesus was the only one who could heal her. At that point Jesus really performs the miracle. Think about His words. “Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made they whole; go in peace.” He healed her soul. He acknowledged that her faith was real and she had put it in the right place and He can do so much more that heal are physical bodies that will rot anyways. He can heal our soul, He can call us into His family. And He can give us HIS peace.

I also do not want to miss the point here, that Jesus cared enough to stop what He was doing and minister to this woman. He cares. We mistakenly think if we are going through tough times that God does not care. Nothing could be further from the truth. Reach out to Him.

Wherever you are at in life, pursue Jesus. Do not be discouraged. Your wait may seem like forever, but it is in His timing. Look to His word for your peace and for examples of those who have gone before us and persevered. And if you are in that place of peace right now, look for those who need encouragement and need to hear about what Jesus desires to do for them.

James 5:1 Indeed we count them blessed who endure. You have heard of the perseverance of Job and seen the end intended by the Lord that the Lord is very compassionate and merciful.





Seeing Ourselves in His Kingdom

My heart breaks when I see lives falling apart. Sometimes we make willful choices that lead to self destruction and damage to the lives around us. Those choices are sin, though we may not be aware of it depending on our relationship with Jesus. Other times we have no control of the circumstances that enter our lives. Very few of us make it far into adulthood without being touched by death, financial trouble or other events that can lead to emotional turmoil. This is life in our broken world. I am not saying anything new here, but can we concede that as we collectively as human beings grow farther and farther from God we are less equipped to handle these circumstances?  Which leads me back to the beginning; my heart breaks when I see lives falling apart.

When we don’t truly know God’s love for us, the choices we make to fill the void only He can fill can lead us to dark places we never thought we would end up. It happens so subtly we rarely see it coming. Over the years I have found that women tend to fall into the belief that we are second hand in God’s eyes. We come by these feelings a number of ways, more than what I could recite here. Often though, it’s due to our environment. If we are treated second hand repeatedly whether it has to do with our sex or not, we will project that behavior onto God; i.e. “Everyone around me treats me as if I am worthless, therefore God must think I am worthless too.” When we are, or perceive we are,  treated poorly because of who we are, where we live, how much money we make etc. it becomes difficult to believe God would treat us any other way. Others of us may not have known such extreme circumstances; but there seem to be subversive ways that doubt sneaks in. I don’t think many of us are immune to that.

Somehow,  our minds make conclusions about God that are not true. We are imperfect humans. We look at the grand histories of Abraham, Moses, David, Paul and many others and we overlook the equally grand stories of Hannah, Tamar, Deborah and Anna. Again, the list goes on. God loved and guided these women the same way that He guided the men.  I believe God designed and uses men and women differently; this is His order. But He loves us the same.

So, how do we allow God into the places in our lives where we are suffering? The dark places where we may be destroying ourselves with sin or self pity. How do we allow Him into the places we have no control, and really, how much can we control in our lives?

This is the way short version of salvation. Way short. If you have any questions please, please, please contact me and we can discuss it further.

Hebrews 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

Acts 2:21 And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved.

John 14:21 He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.

Once you have acknowledged that Jesus Christ is God who came to us in the flesh, paid the penalty for our sins by dying on the cross, then rose again and walked on the earth, thus defeating death; you want to know Him. We do this by reading the Bible for ourselves, finding a Bible teaching church and taking time to study and grow relationships with other believers. There is a great healing that will begin in your life from that moment on. I do stress that there is still life on this earth, and it can still be very hurtful, but our reactions to these situations can change. We can have God’s peace.

In the weeks ahead I intend to look at the lives of women in the Bible. Every word in the Bible is true. Every history that the Holy Spirit instructed the author to write is there to teach and encourage us. Even one scripture about a nameless figure has a purpose. There is plenty here to keep us busy, busy with a purpose to know God better by looking at the women that trusted Him or chose not to. Again, I share with you, I am nervous about this, it’s been done before by more qualified people. I do however feel that He has brought us together for a reason. We are here to travel this part of our journey together. I believe the right people will find me here, just like at our church women’s study. By “right” people I mean you. The one that can read this and hear God’s voice, not because I am eloquent, but because it’s His plan. He knows how to connect the right people together.

I am glad you are here. I intended to start with an actual study today. God had different plans today. I pray His words lead you to grow closer, to pick up your Bible and start seeing God’s love. Don’t compare it to what you think love is or isn’t, let Him teach you afresh.